It's been one of those days you just want to end early. Pack it up, go to bed and wait for morning. One of those days when i really didnt need to feel guilty.
I have a friend...well i think he's still my friend. By the way things have been lately, i guess that's questionable. We're not nearly as close as we used to be and i can take alot of the blame for that. But i do think i've made a huge effort. But nothing seems to be good enough. I could do everything and then some and i still wouldnt make him happy enough.
I cant be with him..mainly because if something were to happen between us and it turned to shit, then i wouldnt be there for him when it mattered. Our friendship means the world to me because he truly understands me and gives the best advice. I can tell him everything and know my secrets are in safe hands.
Also, i'm on house arrest. Meaning i may have to miss an extremely important event that i've been looking forward to for a long time. I'm still working on it though..so there is still hope.
ANYWAY i need this person to know that his input into my life (whether big or small) has a huge impact on me. I regard him as a brother....and i know he's one in a million.